The Art Of Not Asking Why

Note to self:

If you’re using apps made by (and made for) Linux folks, use Homebrew. Sure there’s a pretty macOS package. It works nicely until it doesn’t. And you’ll only find out 2 weeks into using it and waste time digging into it. Use Homebrew. #macos

It’s important to be silly. With yourselves, with your close ones. Being silly is closer to the real us than when we have our mental clothes, for meetings or as we go about our errands.

So be silly. Be humorous. Have fun.

My name is Shay. Pronounced like Shy. And yes, I’ve been asked if I’m shy too many times. Maybe there’s some truth in this question.

I’ve been JTR for a while, and before that just JR or Josh Rollins. Why that name? I’ll leave it to your curiosity and your Googling abilities for now.

What I’m thinking this particular morning, after sleeping too little, is that it’s time to stop “branding” myself. I don’t like the word “brand.” It leaves a bad taste on a personal blog such as this one. I prefer authentic communication, with humans on each end, exchanging opinions and ideas.

Nothing too dramatic here, no big revelations after being online for 20 years (has it been this long? Yes, I guess so). It’s simply time.

I’m still an advocate of privacy. It’s an important topic that should be discussed more often. People know far too little about giving out far too much personal information. But privacy is not hiding for the sake of hiding; it’s about owning your information and having more control over who you share it with and when.

At this point, with my face on several videos I’m creating and intimate conversations in several locations online, I don’t want to be a brand - a thing. This will be a process. People know me as “JTR” in several places, not to mention that it’s my username on a couple of platforms. It’s a starting point then.

So allow me to reintroduce myself again as me, and now we can move on.

I’m going through my old posts (on my old blog) to choose what to put up again here, with the old posting date. I don’t like how I wrote these posts. Part of me wants to tear them down and rewrite them, but that’s cheating. I’ve made progress writing, and that’s proof. It puts things in perspective.

As I watched The Lost King 🎬 yesterday, I was thinking it was a movie about a passion gone too far. The visions of Richard III, the R in the parking lot, the happy ending. Turns out though, it’s a true story.

That really got me thinking. If someone can have a “hunch” like this after doing some research, become a part of a society dedicated to uncovering the truth about a king long lost, and pinpoint the exact location of his royal skeleton… what else can we do? What else don’t we do that we otherwise could?

We can’t ignore science and facts, but on the other hand… can we? Isn’t much of what we know today to be science once considered magic? Who’s to say that we won’t discover a secret about our soul and its connection to the universe we now just consider to be superstitious?

Hmmm 🤨. Hmmm? 🤔

This is the second time I woke up tonight, 10 minutes ago. I’m in the bathroom, on the shower carpet, slowly relaxing from a strong gag reflex. I woke up feeling bile coming up my throat.

The first time, about 3 hours ago, was a weird dream where I chopped people into food products. Mostly sausages, but also chicken, and potatoes. Possibly tomatoes. It wasn’t the horror factor that woke me up, it was because it was boring. At some point, when I started on yet another human, my brain just went “nope. This is too boring, I’m up.”

Now that I’m fully up I think I must have eaten something bad with my family last night, but I didn’t. The food (100% vegan, by the way) was excellent, the kind that makes me miss home cooked food. And the humans, they were excellent too, close family.

Maybe it’s all a subconscious message, or maybe this is what happens when I fall asleep on my stomach pressed against the matt, full of food.

Whatever it is, I need more sleep. Sitting and writing this provided enough time for my stomach to calm down. So, thanks for listening. I’m going to try and get back to bed now.

Another macOS “secret” I got to share with the micro.blog community: When blogging from your Mac, hold down CTRL + CMD + Space to bring up the emoticons complete with a search! Ha! Wish I knew this during the March MB photo challenge!

Smart Folders, where have you been my entire life?! I’m starting to really not hate #macOS over here.

Spring is here, and some of the flowers in the nearby garden are blooming

I take photos on my phone and on my camera. The workflow on the phone is easy: snap a picture, edit in SnapSpeed, post online through ImagePipe, done. On the camera, things are more cumbersome: take a bunch of photos of the same thing, download everything from the SD card to the Synology, and… forget about it.

Photos from the camera need work. At the very least, I need to shrink them (my Sony’s ARW files are around 10MB and 6000 pixels wide) and export them to JPGs. These two things are both done in Darktable. While I’m there, I’m doing some editing.

That last part, working with Darktable, is easy as long as you know what you’re doing. Finding help, even in the official documentation, is time-consuming. You can’t compare the amount of work done by 1.5 volunteers to the work done by 100 professionals.

LinkedIn learning videos give you 60 hits as soon as you type in “lightroom.” Darktable? Zero. Other video tutorials are around 2 years old and geared toward specific techniques. Still, I managed to learn Darktable and use it for three years.

I have hard time seeing my toolbar icons, which are in dark gray over black background, because the program picks up my Linux’s dark theme. Changing the color scheme is not always as straightforward as you’d think. The icons themselves can change from one version of Darktable to the next. Keyboard shortcuts don’t show next to the menu items, so you have to figure them out as well.

I want to reach for my camera more often. I’m itching to take photos. I’m going to Italy soon, and I want to fill up my SD card. Sitting in front of Darktable and scratching my head trying to understand how to make certain parts of an image stand out could be fun, but not when you have 10 of those; each one requires different adjustments. This is usually why I leave my camera behind. My phone is capable of basic photo editing which allows me to do what I want much faster.

When I bought the camera in 2019, I was excited to learn about photography (Aperture, Shutter Speed, ISO = the holy trinity.) My photography skills have improved since then, but my software skills remain the same. Darktable started to slow me down instead of helping me to get the most out of my photos. It isn’t the lack of wanting to learn that did it: it’s the lack of finding information. Sure, you can search and find 10 good tutorials about Darktable, but they’re going to be outdated, too specific, or both.

And another thing. In GIMP, which I also use to edit photos, you need to search for “What is Free Transform in GIMP” to learn that you need “Unified Transform.” In other words, if you don’t know Photoshop, you’re going to have a hard time being proficient in its FOSS alternative. That’s what happens when professionals who use commercial products build a FOSS alternative. They use professional terms. Even the keyboard shortcut for Unified Transform in GIMP is Shift + T, imitating CTRL + T in Photoshop.

Can you explain how to use Mastodon without being able to compare it to Twitter? Sure. Will you write a manual from the ground up instead of explaining something like “On Mastodon, ‘retweeting’ is boosting”? Eh, not so much. We humans build on foundations we know.

It took me an hour to learn which version of Lightroom I need (Classic) if I want to work with photos on my hard drive, along with a complete set of features. Also learned in the same hour: how to open folders and collections from within the program, how to find the shortcut keys for zooming in/out and cropping, and how to do minor edits. The same things took me more than a day with Darktable.

If I want to take a photography course, I need to have Adobe programs. If I want to go on a photo walk with a local group and discuss photography, I better be talking Photoshop and Lightable. And if I want to spend less time learning software and more time walking around snapping pictures and not worrying about how to edit them later, Well…